Hibernation

Today I feel as if I have awoken from a month long hibernation. No, not because it was winter, but because I was suffering from something much more cold and dark; Adult Life. As my husband (lovingly?) pointed out, I have a tendency to just "check out" when we are dealing with a particularly long stretch of unpleasantness (there are examples of this in my previous blog). When I am on top of my game, it's not unheard of for my house to be clean, dinner on the table, beds made, children bathed...yes, ALL in the same day! So I know I have the capacity to be super mom. However, if one thing throws a kink in my schedule ( like if my husband is MIA for a month straight due to work and eats and sleeps at random hours) then I can't seem to focus and/or muster the strenghth for anything more than just hanging on for dear life while insanity grabs the reigns. During this time my children remain safe, happy, and fed so I suppose I can add bonus points for that, right? For some odd reason, being a good home-maker is all or nothing for me. It's super mom or bust. WHY?
I don't mind working myself silly to have a clean house (not to mention clean undies) ready for my husband to come home to, but if I know he isn't coming home that day or have a really hard parenting day and I know I get to deal with all those poopy diapers and tantrums solo, for some reason my brain tells me that it's better just to lay on the couch and watch The Chew ( which has fabulous recipes that I sometimes utilize when life is going just peachy and I feel like cooking. Ok, I have used one recipie) rather than clean up just one of the many messes in my house. If I don't have energy to take care of it all I will take care of nothing. Does any one else have this problem?

Yesterday we took family pictures. We had yet to get pictures of Elliot (yes, he is almost 5 months old...second kid syndrome) and we needed new pictures of all of us. Can you say exhausting? My husband almost lost his mind and temper multiple times while Henry rolled around in the mud because we were taking artsy shots in the middle of a field...Then we had to pretend to be happy and sane for the pictures. Haa! Our photographer was oh-so patient though and I can't wait to see the pictures which I'm sure will be fabulous.

Yet again Oswald Chambers hit the nail on the head and I feel obligated to share:

"We have all experienced times of exaltation on the mountain, when we have seen things from God's perspective and have wanted to stay there. But God will never allow us to stay there. The true test of our spiritual life is in exhibiting the power to descend from the mountain. It is a wonderful thing to be on the mountain with God, but a person only gets there so that he may later go down and lift up the people in the valley."